I should not have been vaccinated today

The vaccine is all I talk about these days. It likely dominates your conversations, too: Did your parents get it yet? When are you getting it? Which one did you get? Did you have any side effects? What is the first thing you are doing once you get it (properly masked, of course)?

I am a healthy, self-employed, forty-something woman who is understandably in Phase 2 for COVID vaccination. I was thrilled when President Biden announced that all adults would become eligible on May 1. I was even more excited when Governor Pritzker declared it would be April 12 in…


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I’ve been looking for the words on this issue all week. Did Brett Kavanaugh assault Dr. Christine Blasey Ford when they were teenagers? It certainly matters.

Women who are assaulted as teenagers need to be heard and heralded so that others can find strength in their moments of crisis. There is too much accommodation of “boys will be boys” and excusing away vile behavior as some sort of rite of adulthood. Just because you partied hard with your frat doesn’t make the behavior at those parties right. …


It’s that time of year again when everyone from buzzfeed to the New York Times has a list of must-read Summer books, the infamous Beach Reads (for all our days at the beach — if only I had so many!).

My husband and I found a tiny spot in Mexico a few years ago well off the beaten path. Just us, no internet, a few books, some groceries, and the turtles! While we usually are all GO when on vacation, this is our spot to relax and recharge. I usually bring at least 10 books…

As I get ready for this year’s trip, I have a few thoughts.

For each trip, there has been “The Book,” that one book that memorably is tied to the week. On our first visit, it was the Area X trilogy by Jeff Vandermeer. I…


Leaving Academia is hard. Whether it’s your choice or your lack of choice, it’s hard.

But one of the things that I have discovered, and that I am learning to believe, is that in the “Real World,” most people don’t treat you horribly for no good reason. In the “Real World,” strangers (passing as colleagues) don’t insult your work and work ethic despite knowing nothing about you. In the “Real World,” strangers don’t go out of their way to tell you that you are a Failure.

Seems like a crazy, radical idea… be nice, or don’t; live, or let live…


This is me functioning at my best.

I’m simultaneously writing on 5…ish different topics and my deadline is days away. I’ve had months to get ready and yet I always find myself here. On the one hand, I guess this makes me a bit of an adrenaline junkie. On the other, I actually had a professor in college tell me: “people like you amount to nothing.” He was directly referencing my tendency towards last-minute prep and short-term memory.

People Like You Amount To Nothing

After years of dining room tables and library carrels and beds and floors like this, of…


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I’m sitting in Dublin Airport for a long layover after an easy, but nonetheless exhausting flight on Aer Lingus. I love Aer Lingus — have flown them so many times over the years, but today’s flight was different. It reminded me that sometimes the little things make a big difference.

Jetlag-busting Game Plan

Jetlag was never a problem for me until one time 2 years ago when I felt like I got hit by a truck. I was traveling for work and fortunately had no immediate responsibilities, but I spent the second day apologizing to people I supposedly had met the night before…


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When it comes right down to it, I think Optimism is my problem. I’m always willing to believe in the next thing, and the next opportunity, and the next moment. I think the Glass can be half full. I just have trouble seeing that for myself. I know I’m not alone. I’m trying to change that.

To begin with, I don’t think I was Glass-Half-Empty until I undertook the 9-year disaster that was my PhD program… and the 4 years of depressing under/unemployment afterwards… Trust me, the lost income, health, and happiness math on that is NOT something I recommend…


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1. Publishing on the Internet

I don’t often feel old, but my fear of the internet is profound. It’s not that I regret what I might say, or what that search might find. I worry that 5, 10 years from now, that ridiculous blog post (this ridiculous blog post?) will come back to haunt me.

The funny thing is there’s nothing I did in college that I would be embarassed about. Isn’t that the big fear from us Gen Y folks? My fear is the permanence of my words, my inability to edit, the stream of consciousness that earns a permanent spot in the universe…


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I have a special section in my library just for my Top 10 Books of All Time. These may not be the best in terms of literary value, but they are, for one reason or another, the 10 best books I have ever read. The list has changed over the years, but half of the books have stayed at the “top” since I created the shelf two decades ago (ugh, I’m old!).

It’s an amusing collection as well as deeply personal — amusing mostly because it is heavy with a genre I don’t generally read: autobiographies. …

Caroline Malloy

Book Coach, Freelance Historian, World-traveler thewritemalloy.com

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